Think, Thought, Thinking

What am I sup to feel when I see my report book? Somehow, it just doesn't sink in. On second thoughts, prelims is like next next week. Goodness gracious. Guess what Mrs hoo said to the few of us, "I want yall to come back on Monday. I want at least a pass for your chem." !!!!!!!!! Excuse me?! I know I'm not good in my chem but what is that sup to mean. Insanity. English prelim paper's just so.. It doesn't feel like prelims at all. Its just like another test, another paper.
I don't look forward to fri at all. I don't. Get my purpose right, yeah yeah. No Melissa, no Xinru. Great huh. Seriously, I don't understand them at all.

Hm. I cant get some things off my head. Melissa! Shan't think so much. Leads me nowhere. The complexity of the mind is something I don't comprehend.
I seem to be waiting, waiting for something. ah. Rest my soul.



who are you to me?
understand, I don't.
stop, look,
here I stand right before you,
who am I to you?
perhaps,
nothing ,
at all.
wishful thoughts,
desires for the impossible,
ceaseless,
endless.

Angst

Me! Why?! Why do I have to say those things, that hurt ppl so much. Time and time again. I never seem to learn. Why?
shut up, yes. SHUT UP!
I should just shut up and not talk when I'm angry.
the angst in me is leading me NOWHERE.
I have to face the mess I've created.
why do I never seem to learn? ppl forgive me, I do it to someone else, again.
ARH!!!!!!!!! WHY!
hm. No matter what, to the ppl around me, thanks for putting up with me, thanks for forgiving me.
rah.

change, I need to.
change, I have to.
change, I will.
through God, yes.