liberatedd: March 2007

don't laugh

This is damn ridiculous.
Guess what happened during prayer meeting.
During Praise and Worship, specifically, Praise.
Jumped too enthusiastically,
and,
my skirt DROPPED.

Don't laugh.
(I'm a St nicks girl, therefore have the habit to wear shorts under my uniform. So, yeah.)

Gosh, it's still embarrassing.

to follow

I was thinking about some stuff last night;
Realised that actually you made me a stronger person than before, ever since that faithful MRT ride home which you said the worst things ever.
You even left without a goodbye, maybe that's when things didn't really matter anymore.
Tired of going after, tired of trying to press into your life.
It didn't really work anyway.
Should have stopped and noticed the people who have been patiently waiting for me.
Waiting for me to realise what a fool I had been, and then to "Follow me".
Yes, to follow.

I seriously have this thing about MRTs.
Made a fool of myself during econs class today.

Mr Li: Yiling, can you name me a good that will raise the demand for N73.
-Pauses and class begins to discuss.
Classmate: Samsung.. Sony Ericsson..
Mr Li: Good!

Me: I thought N73's a MRT station.
-Uproar of laughther and Mr Li flashes his very high-tech phone in front of me.

Okay, I still don't know what has that got to do with demand and supply.

random

I'm going to go bankrupt soon, at the rate we are paying for all the notes.
Sleeping at 9 o clock doesn't make me any more awake in class.
I fell asleep in the train after esther left and totally missed my stop. If not for a kind old man who woke me up at Sembawang(goodness knows why).
School rocks totally; I love my class, cca, teachers and friends.
Excluding the fact that I almost died during land training at the GST.
I do not understand why some people have to quarrel over one message that totally meant nothing.
Crazy, go pick someone your own age.

Ah yes, others can, but I can't.

slow burn

And it is just that, that makes everything about you, disgusting.
Why do that to yourself?
Or maybe, you don't even care and it doesn't matter to you at all.

Oh gosh, surrender it all.

faith

Others can, but I can't.

Do not be afraid, only believe.

Life can only be understood backwards, but it can only be lived forward.

I am the master of my unspoken words and the slave to those which should have remained unsaid.

We have to be to others what we desire for ourselves.

Which kind of sums up the revelations I had in the past few weeks.
Cheers, to a great week ahead!(:

zoomanji!

Randall, Ellice and Shirleen!

Pearlyn and Ling!

Hugging a standing kangaroo

Komali's footprint

Riding on a seal's back

Riding on a zebra! Heh

Heyy heyy! The couple!

Zoomanji was great!

And because Randall, Shirleen, Ellice, Pearlyn and Ling came, it made the event all the more better! :D

Ling's still cute and as pink as ever! Haha. I miss the girl.

No, don't whack my arms. Or else you'll hear me scream. Haha.

Sun burn, it's still hurting today! Aloe vera cream's not helping!

Maybe he's different from the rest.

Maybe.

But, all of them are still the same.

Said,"All guys are jerks" and got a gentle hit on the back, turned around and saw that look.

It sent shivers down the spine.

Reminded never to verbalise it in front of any of that species.

listen

Listen to the song here in my heart
A melody I start but can't complete

Listen to the sound from deep within
Its only beginning to find release

Listen
I am alone at a crossroads
I'm not at home in my own home
And I've tried and tried
To say whats on my mind
You should have known
Now I'm done believing you
You don't know what I'm feeling
I'm more than what
You've made of me
I followed the voice, you gave to me
But now I've gotta find my own
You should have listened

There was someone here inside
Someone I thought had died
So long ago
Oh I'm screaming out
And my dreams will be heard
They will not be pushed Aside or turned
Into your own
All 'cause you won't listen

I followed the voice, you gave to me
But now I've gotta find my own
You should have listened

I don't know where I belong
But I'll be moving on
If you don't, if you won't

Listen to the song here in my heart
A melody I start, but I will complete

Now I am done believing you
You don't know not what I am feeling
I'm more than what you've made of me
I followed the voice you think you gave to me

But now I got to find my own, my own

peanuts

I'm going to be paid for eating peanuts.
80 bucks! It's equivalent to standing for 17 hours!
Oh joy.
Next thursday at NUH!
Haha, I would like to thank God, my father and my mother for having me with peanut allergy.
Okay, no speech.
Haha. Woohoo!

oh eh oh bing bang bong!

orientation, day 1

Mass dance was so much better than the previous one!
Haha. Danced with a girl, and was super hyper, laughing like non-stop.
My ig's not that bad I guess. Anyhow, we'll be getting into our classes on friday.

Can you believe it, after a few hours into orientation, Lauren so couldn't stand AJ anymore, she came over to CJ for her interview.
And guess what, SHE GOT IN!
YAYNESS.
But she won't be in my class anyway. BUT STILL.
Haha, Lauren. (:

Have I mentioned AC-wannabes are freaking thorns in the flesh?
Excuse me, you can't get into AC, it's a fact.
So please, get a life.
If you think CJ's so not the school for you and it sucks just so, fuck off man.
There are so many other people who will appreciate that place you are hogging.
Stop whining about how AC rocks, CJ sucks and how nice is the principal of AC.
Go on, go to the principal, I highly doubt she will accept you.
Even if she does, everyone will be so glad to see you go.

Such irritants don't only appear in my ig yo.
Looking at Lydia's desperate face, and her teary eyes, I so wanted to go up to those AC-wannabes and give them a slap across their faces.

Which reminds me, I have yet to kill someone. I'm still pissed. Seriously, whatever.

Argh, Randall's going poly! :(

lauren

Lauren! Shit you lah!
I'm missing you so much now, in the middle of the night!
I can't believe I'm going to school not seeing you anymore!
We didnt take pictures , Lauren!
I don't care, we have to meet up!
Ahhhh Lauren!

Lauren: I'll miss being mean to you. I'll miss your bitchy-ness. I'll miss you telling me about your sister and the un-gentlemanly guys. I'll miss you rolling your eyes at me. I'll miss you calling me to warn me of impending disasters. I'll miss laughing in front of the computer while you desperately try to get your point across. I'll miss your analysis of Mr Intellectual. I'll miss talking to you. I'll miss you being my wife. I'll miss you trying to shut me up each time I say something totally stupid. I'll miss you whacking my legs to make me keeps my legs closed. I'll miss you, seriously.
I can't believe you're not going to be around anymore!
I miss you already, Lauren!

Lauren's parting gift:
heya girlie. hahah. i never thought i'll say this when i first came to cj cos i hated it so much at first(evidently). bt i'll miss you guys so much. like you were the first person i talked to in 1T05!
so yeah. i seriously think that my parents won't let me cm bk bt oh well. i'll miss your fri ponning obssession & talking 'bout you-know-who & giving you crack advice. & far east. & talking on msn 'bout super brainy lit students & stereotyping & BOXES & birds chirping & wentworth miller & describing things to you which you never understand anyway(so don't ask me what's the pt)
& teaching you math(trust me. it's nt easy altho you aced your math test!!!!!) & buying the $50 bag & telling you 'bout my sis & her escapades in uk & etc. too much to type & think. so seeyou!!!!!!

Ah, Lauren.

So many others won't be around anymore.
Argh.
Tomorrow's a new.. beginning? Have to move on once again.
I can look back and recollect, right?
Someone once told me I shouldn't do that and I should look forward.
Yeah, true. But these are memories so precious that I want to remember them.
Argh, emo emo.

CJC rocks, people.
There is nowhere else I want to be.

Place everything into His hands.

reunion

At Melissa's house now yo! ((:
Like finally, after how many thousand years.
Pearlyn just reached at 11.50pm. And she has been talking non stop since.
And now she's laughing to herself, going gaga over wu zun, like who the hell is he.
Before that Melissa and I were alone, she almost died from boredom;
watching me on the phone, talking online and getting pissed over idiotic people.
She almost killed me, seriously.
Haha. Off to play monopoly now, before I fall asleep and start sleep-scolding.
:D

heyy heyy

Time passes so quickly. It's.. March already. JC life is really fun and all; the friends made, the laughter, the trips to town, and so much more. Wednesday onwards, it's once again with hand out-stretched, "Hi, what's your name?" . The thought of it is sickening as well as exciting, I guess. New faces all around me again, just when I'm beggining to familarise with the people around me.
No more pon-ing school and lectures, chilling at the Grandstand and trips to town will get lesser too.(Yes, it's getting pretty boring there anyway).
Time to move on, again.

I should stop talking like that, about a certain someone. It's getting me nowehere. So, people, stop talking to me like that too. It kinds of make me remain stagnant and start thinking about meaningless things again. Yes, no? I don't know.
Actually, I don't think so.